A-Mazing

We won't talk about what happened to my streak.  We all just know.  Stupid streak.

I've been feeling the guilt since then...this blog and my wide, wide audience (wink, wink) have been haunting me.  And believe me, with each bite of Olive Garden, Taco Bell, Winstead's, and well, pretty much anything that has sugar in it, i feel worse.  Not just from the guilt, but I'm tired, irritable, and havent slept well.  Plus then there's that stupid red line on the scale.  Stupid scale.

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I'm getting around to it...i promise.  Last weekend I bought a brita water pitcher.  The water tastes glorious...i have been trying to drink more of it at work, and get away from my daily 36oz diet dr pepper.  Maybe that's part of the irritability...who knows.  I also confess to buying the power90 dvd's and some resistance bands.  I bought them awhile ago...and finally got around to watching it last night.  Not actually doing the workout, but you know, taking a survey to make sure i wasnt going to hurt myself. :)  Silly huh?  Who goes to a spinning class & just sits there to make sure they're going to like it before they jump in? I felt silly...but i told myself, i just had OG with JN, and really it is not smart to lift weights on a stomach full of delicious gorgonzola pear raviolis with shrimpies and parmesan cream sauce.  yum and UGH...all at the same time.

So, you know, after all of that i needed more motivation...as if my history of running already hasnt told me i am doing a terrible job of taking care of my body - i watched "Super Size Me" on huluplus.  I dont think i seeked (soak? sook?  what is the past tense of to seek?) it out, it just was the last free preview left that i hadnt seen yet.  OMG.  if you havent seen it, you should.  I will never again be able to eat a yogurt parfait from mcD.  And the medical symptoms that guy had after his 30 days on the diet?  Gross & scary all at once.  Ok, so maybe you shouldnt watch it.

So, yes.  tomorrow.  geez, i sound like scarlett ohara..."i cant think about it today, if i do i'll go crazy.  ill think about it tomorrow." :)  but really, i will...i PROMISE.  pinky swear!!

and so it's not all doom & gloom...here are some people I admire, in no particular order.  Except maybe mom.  Shes #1 with good reason.  I think i will start putting these random "blessings" types of notes at the end of each blog post.  it's good to end things on a good note i think.

1) my mom.  she is a machine!  a captain on the fire dept, she keeps up with her crew & gives them a run for their money.  shoot, she puts me to shame!  she is A-Mazing.  motivation, energy, positive vibes, skill, class.  All in one person.  how is this possible?  i think she has magic running through her veins. :)
2) my cousin's wife abbie.  i have always wanted to get into yoga, enjoy running, and like vegetables, and she has all those things going for her, plus she just graduated from law school & passed the bar!  AND?  she blogs regularly, which i cannot seem to do.  another A-Mazing woman.
3) my friend Mary.  She is the mother of 5 kids, and i know i love her because she is a close friend to me, but she always has a sparkle in her eye, and loves to laugh. She reminds me of my grandma ruth a bit, in that she's petite, has a strong faith, loves mischief, and has determination.  We go on a summer float trip every year, and she does a great job of staying in touch and making time for those important to her, in spite of her hectic life.  Such a strong woman, with a love of life!  AND?  with all that going on she is still finding time to help me find motivation to get into the black bikini for next year's float trip.
4) my friend Natalia. I worked with her at the Big-C, and dont know that I've ever met someone with such a love for life other than Mary.  We both share the same home town, and her parents live only a few miles from mine, far on the other side of the state...yet we never met before we lived in KC.  She's energetic, and driven, and optimistic.  Case in point?  She became a mother in January, to a beautiful little boy born 3 months premature.  in reading her daily posts about all she & her little family are going through, she finds positive and relishes in the small victories each day, while still finding ways to give to others.

this is NOT an all-inclusive list.  just want to throw the disclaimer out there...keep reading - you, dear reader, may appear in a future post!  theres a LOT i am grateful for. :) ok, maybe not my sweet tooth or fast food addiction.  but lots of stuff other than that.

xoxo